Fangirl

Guys, if you push yourself too hard, try being a fan. Go watch movies, TV series, concerts, whatever! Find any movies / TV series / musician / any figure that means a lot to you, and be a fan of them.

I believe everyone needs a "fandom"ing time once in a while. That's what keeps you sane.

For me, Valerius is my drugs. My belief about their coming to Jakarta annually is what keeps me sane.

I love you, Valerius. Please come back next year, or sooner will do better <3

History

I just read my older blog posts and I think "Whoa. That was my writing?"

I used to have some blogs and delete the posts frequently. But now I don't. I believe everything I thought and wrote in the past, makes me who I am today. I know it's sometimes embarassing to read my thoughts in the past, but I found it's magical to see the transformations of the past-me to the present-me. It's historical.

3 months and a half

Woke up at 3 am for no reason.

It's been 3 months and a half since I finished my high school studies. Yet, I still have two months ahead to start college.

What do I do? That's the question people keep asking.

I travelled. 3 times, to at least 8 city. From Semarang to Lasem, from Bali to Jember. Two of my mom's fasctinations are travelling and taking photos. So we accompany her pursuing her passion.

I spent 3 months waiting for THIS college result. I've studied hard within the first 2 weeks, but I failed the test. I've done another tests at two different universities, I got them, I want this college so badly that I dare to risk those university offers. Good thing, I'm finally accepted to SMU Bridging Programme. The announcement was just 2 weeks ago. So basically I waited in most of my time.

I try to be more financially productive (and experienced) by teaching a 9-year-old piano student. His name is Raphael. He got the potencial of playing music by ear; however, this ability has not been developed by his former music teacher. So I challenged him to figure out the notes of the grandfather's clock in his house, and give him reward afterward. We started it off simple, I hope he can do much more later.

I produce songs. I've been composing several random pop songs since late last year. I had the ideas in my mind but I didn't have much time to make them happen. It's just last week that I found a website named Soundcloud and honestly, it brings my spirit back.

I spend time with my friends (because that's what we do, right?) through whatever: social media, chatting, meeting. Meeting was pretty intensive back then. But now that fate has destined us to live where we should be living and time has taken us apart from each other, it is something precious.

You see, I'm moving. I'm not like any couch potatoes out there. I'm just not living in routine.




Last word: I'm not afraid of moving forward.

Rescue Me (original)

Rescue Me (original)

hi. I made this today. Simply click the link above to hear my work. Lyrics below :)

Rescue Me

Sailing alone on this ocean of misery
Telling myself to keep rowing
I see no clue of the finish line
Not even a light on the horizon

This feeling is getting heavy on my chest
I got no one to blame, no one to save me
Nobody knows where this feeling may take you up to
I see no sign of the finale

The water is reaching my feet
I close my eyes and wish I had a stronger ship

I send SOS but no one come to save me
Maybe there's even no one on the bay
You see my boat is finally sinking
I'm beginning to drown by myself
Please somebody rescue me

buat kamu

buat kalian yang udah mewarnai hidupku selama umm... at least 1 tahun terakhir ini :)

Terima kasih, Angie Andriani dan Prameswari Noor Andytaputri :*

 

...pup, kalian <3